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Chapter 18: lost memory

I need to take medicine when I get sick, but I have no money to buy it.

So the illness can’t be cured, and if it can’t be cured, then there’s no money to make, and if there’s no money to make, then there’s no way to buy medicine…

This is a closed loop.

If Lin Fan eventually joined the Special Affairs Bureau, then all of this wouldn't be a problem. But if she was just an ordinary person, they wouldn't be able to take charge of this matter.

Jin Sichen asked a few more questions, and Lin Fan answered them one by one. Then he pulled up several questionnaires on his tablet for Lin Fan to answer.

Wu Yusen came over and wanted to say something. Jin Sichen was afraid of disturbing Lin Fan, so she led him to the window, where she could also see Lin Fan's position.

John Woo asked softly, "What do you think?"

Jin Sichen replied in a low voice: "The current diagnosis is that she is simply suffering from depression accompanied by physical disorders."

Wu Yusen was a little anxious. After all, if Jin Sichen didn't make any breakthroughs, then Lin Fan would be just an ordinary person. It also proved that he had found the wrong person.

"She once told me that she often has trouble remembering things, sometimes losing memory for hours or even a whole day. Plus, her personality has changed a bit... Do you think she's a little cold now?" John Woo raised his chin in Lin Fan's direction.

Jin Sichen looked at Lin Fan's half-drooped eyelids. From the beginning of the conversation until now, whether he was talking about his own affairs or when he learned that he had somatization disorder, his expression really didn't change much, as if he was talking about someone else's affairs.

"Do you suspect she has a dual personality?" Jin Sichen asked. Seeing that Wu Yusen didn't understand, she wrote on a piece of paper for him to see: dual personality.

"I think it's very likely. Ever since she showed up, I've always felt it was her. But as you can see, all the other tests were fine. And her symptoms make it hard for me not to think of this possibility."

It's not like there haven't been similar cases before. They couldn't find any special abilities until they discovered another personality, and only when that personality appeared did the special abilities manifest.

Jin Sichen looked at the report in Wu Yusen's hand again: "She has no memory of what happened at that time?"

"She said she doesn't remember. Didn't I just say that her memory is terribly bad due to the side effects of the medication? Now I don't know if she has no idea what happened, or if she knows something but has forgotten it."

"I understand. Now you need me to help you confirm two questions. First, whether she has a hidden dual personality. Second, whether she has any memory of the coma at the time of the incident."

"Yes, if there is a hidden one... then the supernatural power is most likely hidden..." Wu Yusen skipped over some words vaguely, "If not, then we must know what happened that day."

"She said she just fell into a coma due to heat stroke, but I don't believe it. Even if it was heat stroke, there couldn't be no signs at all."

Jin Sichen nodded to show that he understood. "The test we're giving her now includes the question you're worried about, as well as some other tests for antisocial personality, violent tendencies, and so on. Once she finishes, we'll know what's going on."

The two walked back to the sofa and waited for Lin Fan to do the questions.

It didn't take long for Lin Fan to finish his answer.

Jin Sichen looked at the final result and shook his head slightly at Wu Yusen, meaning that Lin Fan did not meet the requirements for the dual personality test, nor did he have any problems such as antisocial personality and violent tendencies.

Seeing that this road was also blocked, John Woo didn't know whether he should be happy or not.

The other personality of a person with dual personality is usually very different from the main personality, or even completely opposite in character.

Looking at Lin Fan's current, though aloof, state, she was still quite gentle. If she truly had a dual personality, then the other personality's personality would be very difficult to deal with. Even if supernatural powers were detected in the other personality, it wouldn't be a good thing.

But if this path is blocked, the only remaining clue is her memory of the day she fell into a coma.

Wu Yusen's smile almost faded, and he began to doubt himself. Could he have been mistaken? After all, intuition couldn't guarantee 100% accuracy.

Jin Sichen started talking again over there, and John Woo quickly calmed down and listened carefully.

"The tests we just did showed that everything was normal. Apart from depression and physical disorders, you currently have no other problems." Jin Sichen said to Lin Fan first.

"But I've noticed that you've always been indifferent. Even when you're talking about your own affairs, you don't show any emotion. It seems like nothing can affect you. Are you aware of this?"

"I know," Lin Fan replied. "I don't know when it started, but I don't seem to care about my own affairs anymore. Maybe I've thought it through. Who knows?"

"Even if they told me I wouldn't live to see tomorrow, I wouldn't be surprised. On the contrary, I'd be secretly happy, even though I haven't felt happy in a long time. Even when I'm sad, I can't feel sad. Do you know what I mean?"

Jin Sichen nodded.

"On the contrary, other things would make me sad, but I didn't want to be bothered by them, so I tried to act indifferent and pretend that I didn't care."

"I couldn't do it at first, but later on, even when I felt bad, I could still look calm on the outside. I wonder if that's considered progress?"

"This isn't a good sign," Jin Sichen said. "Even though it appears you're protecting yourself from harm, deep down you're still feeling sad."

"Because of self-suggestion, this sadness can't be released. If you suppress it for a long time, depression will accumulate. Fortunately, you've been going out to feed stray animals every few days in the past six months, which can be considered some social interaction. Otherwise, your condition would definitely be worse."

"My advice is to find a relatively safe environment, and while ensuring you're not hurt, try to let go of yourself, get in touch with the outside world, and engage in some social activities in moderation."

Lin Fan knew what he said made sense. Although it wasn't easy to do, he still expressed his gratitude: "Dr. Jin, thank you."

Doctors also feel at ease when they encounter patients who are easy to communicate with.

Jin Sichen ended the topic and changed the subject: "I heard that when the plane crashed over your neighborhood, you were outside feeding the cats. Don't you have any recollection of this incident?"

Lin Fan thought about it carefully, but he couldn't think of anything. He shook his head and said, "I can't remember anything."

Jin Sichen opened the crash video in the file and showed it to Lin Fan. "Look, in this video, the plane was still at a relatively high altitude, but the phone still recorded a loud roar."

"When the plane reaches your residential area, it's much lower than here, and the roar should be very loud. You're outdoors, so even if you don't see the plane, you should be able to hear the roar. Think about it, have you ever heard it?"

Lin Fan listened carefully to the roar of the plane on his phone and tried to recall: "That day... I went to feed the cat... It wasn't that hot..."

"Yes, the weather is not that hot. You go to the place where cats are fed and see the cats. Then what?" Jin Sichen guided calmly.

Seeing that things were progressing, John Woo straightened his back unconsciously and held his breath, for fear of interrupting Lin Fan's memories.

"Then I poured cat food and water. They ate happily." Lin Fan closed his eyes and leaned against the sofa. "I just watched them eat for a while, then went to the entrance to pour cat food and water."

"How do you feel now? Do you feel uncomfortable? Do you want to faint?" Jin Sichen asked. If Lin Fan fainted due to heatstroke, he should have felt uncomfortable before fainting.

"I'm not feeling unwell, I just don't want to faint." Lin Fan thought carefully for a while and replied.

That didn't mean he fainted from heatstroke, and John Woo breathed a sigh of relief.

"There was cat food and water at the entrance. What happened next?" Jin Sichen continued to guide.

"After that...after that I'm going home."

Not really! Wu Yusen thought to himself.

He had seen the cat feeding area at the entrance to the grove; it wasn't far from the entrance, just a few steps away. While the surveillance cameras outside couldn't capture the scene inside the woods, they could capture the entrance. As soon as Lin Fan came out, she could immediately access the surveillance cameras, but she never came out.

"Have you returned home?"

"No."

"Why didn't you go home?"

"When I was about to leave, the cats that were eating inside suddenly got angry, screamed, and ran away. I went back to see what was going on."

"Did you see what happened?"

"No, I can't see anything. I thought there was a snake or something, so I used a branch to knock on the grass around, but there was nothing."

"And then?"

"Then... I heard a buzzing sound..." Lin Fan opened his eyes and said with certainty, "I heard the buzzing sound in the video!"

Wu Yusen became excited when he heard this, but Jin Sichen remained calm and continued to ask with a smile: "Good, you heard the buzzing sound, what's next?"

Lin Fan lowered his eyes and continued to recall, "Then the noise grew louder and louder, quickly becoming incredibly loud. I felt the sky darken, and when I looked up, I saw a huge gray object streaking across the sky above the woods, trailing black smoke... Was that the plane?"

"Yes, that's the plane. You saw it," Jin Sichen confirmed. "What did you do after you saw it?"

John Woo felt his heart pounding, but after waiting for a long time, no word came.

"Lin Fan?" Jin Sichen noticed Lin Fan was lost in thought again and reminded him, "Do you remember what you did after you saw the plane?"

Lin Fan shook his head: "I don't know. I just remember seeing black smoke, and then... then I really can't remember anything."

"Don't worry, drink some water first," Jin Sichen soothed. "Let's think about it carefully. You saw the plane and the black smoke it was trailing."

"right."

"Then you passed out and didn't wake up until the evening."

"……right."

"So, after you saw the black smoke, did you feel particularly uncomfortable, sick, or dizzy?"

"...No." Lin Fan thought about it carefully again.

"That is to say, after you saw the black smoke, you didn't feel any discomfort, but suddenly lost consciousness. You were unconscious for several hours and woke up after dark, right?"

"……right."

"So, Lin Fan," Jin Sichen asked with a smile, "At this point, can we rule out the possibility of fainting from heatstroke?"

Lin Fan was silent, and John Woo couldn't help but give Jin Sichen a thumbs up in his heart.

"It's still a dangerous situation for you to suddenly lose consciousness outdoors for several hours. It's better to find out what happened. It will prevent it from happening again and you can prepare for it in advance."

"But I really can't remember."

"It's okay, don't worry. I'll help you." Jin Sichen said softly, "Since it's really hard for you to recall the past, why not try hypnosis? It can help you recall things you've overlooked or forgotten in a more relaxed state. That way, we can retrieve that lost memory from your subconscious."

"May I?"

"Sure. Don't worry, I'm very good at hypnosis. You'll feel like you just took a nap, and your lost memories will be restored. Don't you want to know?"

Lin Fan didn't care.

But it was precisely because of this missing memory that John Woo found her. Because she couldn't explain it clearly, she was taken to the Special Affairs Office to undergo these tests.

It can be said that this is the cause of all things.

Whether she wants to know or not, they will get to the bottom of it, so let them do it.

Moreover, she also had some little thoughts in her mind.

If hypnosis is so powerful, can I ask him to hypnotize me back to a normal physical state?

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