Perhaps, the human will that supported Gin's killing and the countless souls that made up the human will had completely disappeared in these chaotic few years.
Gin is dead, the Saint of Slaughter is dead, and the cause of death is that he was completely wiped out by the endless eternity of time.
Conan grabbed Gin and roared madly again and again, but it was useless in the end.
In the end, he could only make the final choice.
With a snap, Gin's neck was broken. Then, Gin's body could not even maintain the state of a corpse. It collapsed in an instant and turned into dust and scattered.
Conan has long been in despair and madness, but a future more cruel than despair and madness is still waiting for him.
The world is so big, but Conan is the only living human being left!
Conan fell to the ground. He could only choose to sleep, but he slept and woke up, woke up and fell asleep again. He was crazy when he was awake and rested in his dreams. This cycle repeated itself endlessly.
But after a few years of chaos, Conan Wan inexplicably regained some clarity. Then, he was dazed for a long time. Finally, he stood up, staggering forward, like a walking corpse.
There is no purpose, and I don’t even know why I am walking, I just keep walking.
After the global nuclear war, nuclear radiation spread across the globe, human society perished, and the ecology suffered a severe blow, but life will always find a way out on its own, and gradually, the earth became full of life again.
Conan trudged and walked continuously. He neither grew old nor died. He fell off a cliff, but got up and continued walking. He fell into a volcano, but would be sent out by the eruption. He stepped into the sea, but eventually came out from the other side of the sea.
It’s a long and lonely journey, without any meaning!
At the beginning, he could still see some traces of human creation, but soon, even stubborn garbage like plastic was pressed under the surface by natural cycles and crustal movement, and all traces of human beings could no longer be seen on the earth.
There was no purpose, no direction, and no end to the trek. Even nature could not keep up with Conan's pace. He once saw a desert, but after a long journey, when he returned here again, what he saw was a rainforest.
He fell into madness and despair again and again, and then woke up again as if from a last breath.
Time is majestic, it can even completely erase despair and madness itself. The only thing that cannot be erased is the existence of Edogawa Conan!
Not to mention the times of madness and despair, but when he was sober, Conan unconsciously recalled the past.
All the people and things in the memory gradually became clear!
For example, the Maori Office was so vivid that Conan seemed to be able to recall everything inside the Maori Office, including the touch of the floor.
Vivid to...
It seems to be right in front of you!
One day a few years into the chaos, Conan suddenly stopped and looked ahead in silence.
In front of him was a rainforest, but in the rainforest, the Maori Office was like a mirage, gradually emerging in an illusory form and then gradually becoming real.
On the second floor of the Maori office, Maori Kogoro, who was sitting there, drinking beer and betting on horses, became increasingly visible...
"Do not……"
Conan used his great rationality to stop his wild thoughts, and when he stopped thinking about it, Maori Office disappeared, as if it had never existed.
Conan realized a horrible fact.
If he wants to!
Everything can return!
157. God is with you
Conan is sober and his rationality is still strong. He knows that he can't think about it anymore.
It’s actually very simple to do this.
Turn your eyes to look at a certain scenery, and cycle three times from concentration to emptiness of mind. Take a deep breath, and count numbers silently. Your brain will soon be empty!
It's just a little detective trick.
But it is extremely difficult to really stop yourself from recalling the past.
Because this endless eternity is so vast and cruel.
Conan used his great willpower to restrain himself from falling into his memories.
This persistence lasted day after day, year after year, but finally came to an abrupt end because Conan collapsed again.
I fall into madness when I am awake, and only when I fall asleep can I have a moment of peace.
This was not the first time, and for Conan, this was barely a brief relief.
But no matter what, his rationality will return, allowing him to wake up again and face this endless eternity with a clear mind.
Only this time, Conan "woke up" earlier than before!
Because, a petite figure stood in front of Conan and said in a calm tone:
"Humanity is ultimately defeated, right? Then, Lord God, after you have denied my death and brought me back to this stage, what are you going to do? Are you going to return to Beika Town once again and play that never-ending detective game? If that is the case, I would like to ask you for reasonable work treatment. For example, you can kill me after working for five days and let me rest for two days. You can also guarantee that I can lie in the coffin and not work on statutory holidays. Is that okay with you?"
Looking at Haibara Ai standing in front of him, speaking in a seemingly calm but actually desperate voice that was speechless, Conan laughed, a hysterical and crazy laugh.
For the detective, the cruelest thing in the world is that he knows everything but cannot stop it. Even if he tries and persists with all his might, it is ultimately in vain.
The detective who was supposed to bring justice, his very existence, has become the source of all despair!
But when he was sober, Conan's tenacious and extraordinary rationality still came in handy.
After a long time, he gradually stopped his hysterical laughter.
He opened his mouth, which had not spoken for many years, and explained the situation to Haibara Ai in incoherent and fragmented words. Although there were some problems with the logic of his language, his mind was clear and his meaning was expressed clearly.
When Huiyuan Ai heard this, her expression was still one of despair and calmness, but her brows were slightly raised:
"You mean, when you collapsed and went crazy, you finally couldn't suppress your instinct to recall the past, and instinctively brought the dead me back? But, to be honest, according to this situation, I have thought of some very interesting questions. Are you sure you really brought the dead "me" back, or did you create a copy of "Graybara Ai" out of thin air that fits your memory impression? Or, is my appearance and existence just a dream hallucination in your long madness?"
Although Haibara Ai is a scientific researcher, she has also done some research on philosophy, so at this moment she raised several questions.
Conan remained silent and responded:
"If I were to reason based on the information I have now, I would not be able to answer this question. However, I know and confirm, instinctively and intuitively, that the person who appears before my eyes is the real and only you. Moreover, I cannot recall a second you..."
Huiyuan Ai took out a small notebook and pen, and wrote down what she was saying:
"Hmm, is it the intuition and instinct of God? This is good news. This way, I don't need to worry about what "I" am. Theology is really convenient. As long as I get the oracle, I can know all the answers without research. If I had known earlier, I should have gone into seclusion with Dr. Agasa to study theology and magic. Also, creatures like gods, no, this kind of existence is really unreasonable. When he was talking just now, his language logic was a mess, and there was suspicion of brain nerve damage, but in just a short while, he has recovered as before..."
A long time ago, recording and studying all the information about Conan and trying her best to crack the mysteries of him was Haibara Ai's main job.
In a sense, Haibara Ai had already changed her career to become a theologian many years ago. She has spent her entire life using all her wisdom to study Conan, the evil god named after a detective. Then, in the end, she presented the results of her life-long research, putting all the chips of mankind at stake, and step by step depicted the final battle plan for the "death" of God. Many of the contents were written by Haibara Ai.
Of course, we failed in the end, but this can only be said to be a crime not caused by war.
In the war of gods in which all mankind staked everything, the gods have died, and they have died again and again, over and over again.
But no matter how many times he is killed, the god still exists as before. Except that every once in a while he will collapse into madness and chaos for years due to the accumulation of despair, there is nothing wrong with him.
Huiyuan Ai closed the book, looked up at Conan, and asked calmly:
"why me?"
Conan was silent for a while, then said: "According to my reasoning, I was probably in a state of collapse and madness, feeling that I couldn't go on like this, and then subconsciously felt that you could help me, or kill me, so I couldn't help but recall you..."
Even when he fell into madness, Conan's remaining rationality always played a role.
Conan instinctively knew that if he continued to "recall", the final outcome would be a recurrence of all the despair and pain.
But Conan was alone and didn't know what to do, so he instinctively sought help!
There are not many main characters around Conan, but not few either, but Haibara Ai is undoubtedly special.
Smart and mature, she has accompanied Conan through many cases and has always been able to provide a lot of help, whereas others are always lacking something, even the Kudo couple find it difficult to do this.
"Should I say it's my sorrow or my honor to be denied death by God for such a reason? Although I really want to say that your memories of Gin may be more useful than mine, forget it. Let the man who completely burned everything for humanity have a good rest. According to the current situation, even if I refuse and beg you to kill me, I should still be remembered by you the next time you go crazy. So, I can help you, but I have a request..."
Huiyuan Ai paused, and said to Ke Jianan word by word:
"No matter what you face, you can only think of me. Especially, you are not allowed to miss or remember Sister Xiaolan..."
It sounds like this seems to be a confession, but both Haibara Ai and Conan know that these words are narrating a cruelty that is far more serious than that.
At this moment, Haibara Ai lowered her eyes slightly, recalling the time when she was lying on the back of Mouri Ran, listening to her gentle whispers and falling asleep peacefully, or the comfort and warmth when she curled up in her arms and had her gently touch her head.
Although Haibara Ai missed her, she did not want the gentleness that had fallen into the sleep of death to be pulled back to the stage where despair and madness coexisted.
Conan stared at Huihara Ai quietly: "I promise you, because this is what I expect, but I can't guarantee it, I have failed too many times..."
"That's enough. I thought that the war of killing gods, in which all mankind put all its chips on the line but was ultimately defeated, would be the end of my life. I didn't expect that I could be resurrected from the dead and participate in the murder of myself by the gods. Is this a mockery of fate, or a blessing from the human race that has not been given up? Well, this may be a very long journey. Lord God, no, Conan, before we set off, are you interested in having a cup of coffee together after a long time?"
Haibara Ai waved her hand backwards. Not far away, Dr. Agasa's house was located alone among the mountains and forests, like a haunted house.
Haibara Ai also walked out of it.
Conan was silent for a while, then followed Haibara Ai in.
I don't know whether it is fortunate or unfortunate, Conan only recalled Haibara Ai and Dr. Agasa's house where Haibara Ai lived. He even recalled the furniture in Dr. Agasa's house and various research equipment in the basement perfectly, but he missed Dr. Agasa!
Haibara Ai would not be tactless enough to mention Professor Agasa, so as to avoid exacerbating Conan's "memories".
She operated the coffee machine quietly!
But at this moment, the coffee machine suddenly exploded.
There was a piece of debris stuck in Haibara Ai's neck, and without even a sound of complaint, she fell down spitting blood. As she fell, her fingers subconsciously pointed in a certain direction.
Conan was stunned for a long time, but his long-lost instinct pushed him to look around.
Even though Conan no longer wanted to reason, he looked around instinctively, and the information called "truth" quickly emerged in his mind.
In this murder of Ai Haibara, the murderer was the water dispenser behind the coffee machine. The motive for the crime was that the water dispenser had been neglected by Ai Haibara for a long time, and she became jealous of the coffee machine that Ai Haibara had been using for a long time, so she overloaded the circuit, causing the coffee machine to explode, killing Ai Haibara with flying fragments...
Conan himself couldn't figure out how he could get such a bizarre and outrageous "truth" after just a few observations!
Conan looked at Haibara Ai's gradually cooling body, and finally sighed deeply. Then, he gently closed his eyes and just "recalled" a little.
Just a second later, when Conan opened his eyes again, Haibara Ai had been resurrected and her neck was restored to its original state. If it weren't for the bloodstains on the ground, it would seem as if nothing had happened. By the way, the coffee machine was also restored to its original state.
After resurrection, Huiyuan Ai asked Conan a few questions and then knew what was going on. She said calmly:
"Even if you have woken up, the aura of disaster that caused all kinds of crimes to happen around you still exists. However, this aura never chose me as a victim before. Now, is it that my heroine status has completely expired, or is it that there are only you and me left in this world, resulting in the aura of disaster not having many choices? I think the latter factor is more likely. The murderer was jealous of the water dispenser. If it were this case in the past, I would have laughed for a year or two..."
Conan remained silent upon hearing this. Existence itself was a disaster. For such a thing, he had nothing else to say except silence.
Haibara Ai unplugged the water dispenser and threw it aside, symbolizing that she had brought the culprit to justice and then left him alone.
Smoke rose from the coffee machine. After taking the coffee cup from Haibara Ai, Conan, after experiencing many vicissitudes of life and many years of chaos, finally drank the liquid with a little warmth.
It would be nice if there wasn't a large amount of lethal poison in the coffee.
But it doesn't matter, Conan still drinks it all
After observing for a while, Huiyuan Ai recorded this information and said:
"Conan, I have good news and bad news. Which one do you want to know?"
Conan said, "Let's talk about the good news first."
Having stood in despair for too long, Conan urgently needs to know some good news.
Ai Huihara said, "When you were still in Beika Town, you drank this cup of poisoned coffee that I carefully prepared. At the very least, you had to go to the toilet for a while because of diarrhea, and at the worst, you would have symptoms similar to a cold. At that time, you would still give some face to "reality", and there was a possibility of being portrayed as a "failure". But now, you will no longer react like that. In addition, your power to revive others is just a memory. Conan, in my opinion, you are more like a god than ever before. Or to put it another way, Conan, you are awakening little by little in the long eternal time, and taking back the supreme power that you should truly possess..."
Conan looked increasingly helpless: "Is this good news?"
Huihara Ai continued to explain, "When you were in Beika Town, you had infinite and incredible divine power, but you lacked independent rationality. You just followed your detective instinct and pulled everyone into your endless game. You were an out-and-out evil god. But now, you have been awakened. In time, you will take back all the power you deserve and control it with rationality. By then, a supreme and omnipotent absolute god will be born. You can solve everything without seeking help from others. How can this not be good news?"
Conan was silent for a moment, and finally said:
"Xiao Ai, don't tell me that you haven't thought about what will happen in this "given time" process!"
Huiyuan Ai said calmly: "What else can happen? It's nothing more than us crawling out of the grave to chat with you. The worst case scenario is nothing more than all of humanity, you who have fallen into madness but cannot control your own divine power are resurrected again and again with memories, and then when you are alive, you are repeatedly dragged into endless detective games by your disaster halo until you go completely crazy or fall into destruction, and it will be a cycle over and over again. But you don't have to worry, out of rational calculation, as long as you ascend to the highest level, with your absolute power that is almost omnipotent, all the despair that once existed can be redeemed and erased."
Conan was silent for a long time again, and sighed deeply:
"I'm sorry, when that time comes, I may really be able to change everything, but I may never be able to erase my despair."
Huibara Ai patted Conan on the shoulder and said, "Be optimistic. Maybe when you reach the highest point, you will no longer be the same person you are now. You don't think that with your current rationality and humanity, you are qualified to survive the eternal time that is only in your imagination and cannot be estimated at all. If you can survive it, you must be completely crazy. Oh no, your humanity will fade away, your divinity will rise, and everything you think and do will be glorious. You will definitely not care about such insignificant details!"
"What about the bad news?"
This good news was so "good" that Ke couldn't wait to hear some bad news.
Huihara Ai spread her hands and said, "Killing the only living god who is gradually regaining his power is more difficult than killing the evil god entrenched in Beika Town. In order to achieve the latter, humans gambled everything, but still failed miserably. As for the former, do you think it's possible for just the two of us!"
Conan thought about it and decided to tell a joke:
“I think it’s OK, because God is with you…”
Haibara Ai had a blank expression on her face. She opened her mouth and was about to say something when there was a snap and the floor she was standing on collapsed, and she fell down with a whoosh.
In the second murder case of Haibara Ai, the murderer was an earthworm. It was very uncomfortable with the noise coming from above and decided to teach above something a lesson. As for the earthworm's method of committing the crime, there is no need to say more because it is ridiculous in itself.
