Chapter 347: What is the result of the unknown feelings?
Since traveling to the island country, if we have to pick out one thing in daily life that Sawayama Haruno can praise, it would probably be taking a bath.
Due to cultural influences, most Japanese people will install a pool or bathtub for bathing in their bathroom. Taking a bath every day to relax the mind is indeed the best choice. Even Sawayama Haruno finds it difficult to get bored of taking a bath.
After all, can anyone really resist a bath?
He couldn't refuse anyway.
Sawayama Haruno leaned comfortably against the wall of the bathtub, and after soaking for about fifteen minutes, he lazily got up to rinse his body.
From time to time, the sound of three people talking and laughing could be heard from the bathhouse where the girls were next door. However, compared to the noise at the beginning, they were now much quieter. They were probably enjoying the bath or washing themselves.
As a boy, Sawayama Haruno of course takes a shower faster than a girl. After showering, he picks up his things, takes the opened bottle of hot milk and prepares to go out to find a massage chair and wait for other people.
However, just as he walked out of the bathhouse with a towel wrapped around him, he found that Ayano Yui was already one step ahead of him, lying comfortably in the massage chair.
"Hi~"
Ayano Yui looked extremely enjoying herself, and it was obvious that she was enjoying the massage chair very much. Even her voice couldn't help but tremble a little.
"Why did you come out so soon? I thought you would stay in the bath for a while longer." Sawayama Haruno asked curiously.
"Maybe it's because I'm tired?" Ayano Yui opened her eyes and smiled tiredly, "I felt a little dizzy after soaking for a while, so I just came out early to catch my breath."
"Yeah."
Zeshan Haruno sat aside without comment. After drinking a sip of hot milk, he suddenly asked, "When are you going to go home?"
What Sawayama Haruno was talking about was not the place where the other person lives now, nor was it Tokyo, but Ayano Yui's original home.
This guy ran after me, looking like he had no intention of going home. Although their families were very close, it was time for the holiday, so he should go back and see his parents so they wouldn't worry, right?
"Are you in a hurry to get me back?"
Ayano Yui looked at her brother with some depression.
She sighed deeply and pretended to be disappointed and said, "Forget it. I understand. After all, the other members of the Miyazawa family will be here tomorrow. With one more girl, my brother won't have enough energy to take care of everyone."
"That's not the reason."
Sawayama Haruno suddenly felt a toothache.
"We've already discussed it before. We plan to go back to Tokyo after two weeks. I just think it would be better for you to go back earlier and reunite with your family." He said helplessly.
"It's only two weeks. We just got back, so there's still plenty of time." Ayano Yui disagreed.
Although she had many classmates and friends in her hometown, she didn't have much desire to meet with them to reminisce about the past. It would be better for her to stay with Zeshan Haruno.
As for my family, technology is so advanced now that I can make video calls with them every day. Of course, I don’t miss them as much as I imagined. Besides, I will definitely find time to go back next week, so there is no rush at all.
She also wanted to wait for Mana to come over and ask her to "help her" according to the previous agreement.
"Just be sensible."
Seeing that she said so, Zeshan Haruno stopped persuading her.
He drank hot milk while checking text messages on his phone.
During the busy whole day back to Osaka, he received a lot of messages from others. Apart from some old classmates asking if he was the writer "Kiyama Fuyumi", the more noteworthy messages were probably the pictures of afternoon tea at the company sent to him by Mine Shiori, and a string of chat records sent by Morikawa Riho.
Sawayama Haruno clicked on it and saw that it was a conversation between the other party and the previous real estate agent.
When he left for Osaka for the holiday, he had entrusted the matter of buying a house to Riho Morikawa. After another round of discussions with the agent and the landlord, she finally helped Haruno Sawayama get a suitable price.
Now I just have to wait for him to come back from Osaka and hand over the bank card and other personal documents.
“It’s quite efficient.”
Looking at the resentful emoticons sent by the other party, as well as the text messages blaming herself for treating her like a coolie, Sawayama Haruno couldn't help but raise the corners of her mouth slightly.
By the way, if I ever buy a car in the future, should I ask Ms. Morikawa if she has any friends who know her?
Having such an editor really makes my life a lot easier. His network of relationships is so strong that it has helped me solve many problems.
This time is no exception. The problem of buying a house was solved so easily. She is worthy of being Miss Morikawa. I will go back and have a meal with her.
"I say, Haruno."
Noticing that Sawayama Haruno seemed very happy, Ayano Yui bit her lip lightly, feeling a little complicated inside.
"Come to think of it, do you really want me to leave early?" she suddenly asked in a low voice.
"what?"
Sawayama Haruno was stunned for a moment and subconsciously looked at the other person, but he only saw Ayano Yui's face pretending to be stubborn.
"Otherwise why did you tell me to go home just now? I have lived in your house for a longer time before, and your parents are not unaware of it, and they are also very relieved." Ayano Yui said in a low voice.
She seemed to be a little upset about what happened to Zeshan Haruno just now. Although she did not show any particular disappointment on the surface, Zeshan Haruno, who was familiar with her, knew that this was the saddest time for her.
As expected, did the other party notice that I was gradually distancing myself from him?
Zeshan Haruno hesitated for a moment. After a long silence, he said softly, "It's not that I hope you leave early. I'm happy that you're willing to live at home. But as a cousin, I have to consider some things."
He tried to be as tactful as possible. In fact, when the word "cousin" came out, Ayano Yui instantly understood what he meant.
".When have I ever had this feeling? It's clear that I've never felt it before."
Ayano Yui stopped the massage chair, curled up as much as possible, and said in a slightly hoarse voice: "Can't we continue to get along with each other as before? Suddenly saying something that we have to consider is no longer like the way we used to get along with each other."
"We've all grown up." Zeshan Haruno whispered. How can we compare when we were little to when we grow up?
When he was young, although he had memories of his previous life, Ayano Yui was too young at the time. He simply treated her as a younger sister. Coupled with what the adults around him said, he developed a sense of pampering towards her.
But after growing up, it is obvious that he can no longer treat her in the same way as his sister. What's more, Ayano Yui still has special feelings for him. To this day, Sawayama Haruno still doesn't know whether his gentle behavior when he was a child led to his mistake today.
"It doesn't matter now that you've grown up, right? Didn't Haruno promise to stay with me forever when he was little?"
Ayano Yui hugged her knees, lowered her head and said in a gloomy voice: "Although I know that my brother only agreed to be with me from the perspective of a relative, I am still very happy. But people seem to become more and more greedy, and there are things I don't understand."
"Why can't we have true feelings for each other even though we grew up together? Isn't this unfair? Because I'm the one who's been following Haruno all the time. Is it because I'm the one who's been following him that you can't have a further relationship with me now?"
"." Sawayama Haruno opened his mouth but couldn't say a word.
What Ayano Yui said made sense, but it was precisely because it made too much sense that things became difficult.
He didn't know how to express his current thoughts. Logically speaking, there would be no problem even if he was with Ayano Yui. After all, there was no blood relationship between the two of them. When they were young, many relatives urged Ayano Yui to marry them in the future.
However, some things are not "okay" just because they are "okay"
"You are someone who takes responsibility for others, and Suguha used similar methods to make you take responsibility before. Why do you want to abandon me now?" Ayano Yui's voice became more aggrieved.
She felt it was very unfair because there was no special feelings between Suguha Ezaki and Haruno Sawayama at the beginning. She only forced Haruno Sawayama to have a relationship with her because Haruno Sawayama could remember her appearance at that time and kept thinking about her.
In the end, Suguha Esaki got Sawayama Haruno to take responsibility as she wished. Although the relationship between the two could not be made public, at least she got what she wanted.
If that's the case, then why can't I do it?
If Sawayama Haruno must be held responsible for Ezaki Suguha's affairs, then the same applies to her own affairs. Because she had fallen in love with him earlier than anyone else.
"I didn't mean to abandon you"
Hearing the other party's voice gradually losing control, Sawayama Haruno's heart skipped a beat.
He slowly reached out and placed his hand on Ayano Yui's shoulder, as if to comfort her.
"I won't abandon you either, Wei," he whispered.
"Then treat this relationship well." Ayano Yui raised her head and stared at him a little aggrievedly. "I have given up the idea of monopolizing Haruno, so can't you leave a little bit of position for me? Or are you still brooding over the fact that we grew up together?"
".I have no idea."
Sawayama Haruno pursed his lips and sighed imperceptibly.
"To be honest, I don't know either. Right now, I don't know how to face the relationship between you and me."
No matter how self-centered a person is, they still have feelings, and the experiences that have accompanied them since childhood will not change even after several reincarnations or more life experiences.
He was indeed accustomed to Ayano Yui telling some weird jokes around him, and occasionally showing her devilish personality. If Ayano Yui suddenly stopped behaving like this in front of him one day, he would definitely feel uncomfortable.
However, if I describe this feeling as love, I feel like it has not been filled yet. It is probably because I have always regarded the other person as a "junior" or a "sister" who is several generations younger than me.
If there was no such thing as reincarnation, if those memories did not exist, there is no doubt that when faced with the question raised by Ayano Yui now, I would definitely agree without hesitation, and even if I were to date her, I would definitely not be confused.
But there are not so many "ifs" in the world.
Trying to comfort yourself by using "what ifs" is ultimately useless.
So at this moment, Sawayama Haruno still said the answer "I don't know".
'It's so unfair'
Ayano Yui bit her lips tightly, the surging emotions in her heart made her feel increasingly powerless.
Obviously, he was the first person to appear next to Sawayama Haruno before Miyazawa Mana, but he always fell behind others. Even though he changed himself again and again and went to Tokyo with them, he was still stopped by some false excuses.
What she longed for was to cross the distance that stood between them.
"I really like Haruno."
She whispered softly: "Isn't it possible to restart our relationship in another way?"
".Start over?"
Zeshan Haruno's eyes wandered to the ground beside him, feeling the temperature of the milk bottle in his hand gradually disappearing. After a long silence, he said, "Maybe, if we can start over with a new relationship?"
His thoughts were slightly changed by the other party. In fact, it has always been like this. Maybe he is just like Mana once said, a guy who responds to soft tactics and not hard ones.
Seeing Ayano Yui looking so weak and haggard in front of him, his heart would twitch unconsciously, and memories of the past would flood into his body, and he would feel the same pain.
Maybe I should try to look at Ayano Yui with different eyes.
Although I don't know if I can have any emotions other than family affection, at least I won't make Ayano Yui so sad, nor will I make myself sad if I see her sad.
It was confusing but he had made up his mind.
Zeshan Haruno took a deep breath and said calmly, "I don't know what will happen, but since I can start over, the ending may be different, right?"
"."
With slightly red eyes, Ayano Yui looked at him blankly, as if she had not yet reacted to what Sawayama Haruno had just said.
The throbbing took over the girl's body almost instantly, driving her to open her mouth and want to say something. The words of love and longing were clearly about to come out, but
"Hey, Haruno came out so soon."
Maki Miyazawa came out of the bathhouse wearing a towel. When she saw Haruno Sawayama and Yui Ayano, she looked a little surprised.
(End of this chapter)
